Kid Gets Shot by Brother

If i was in that predicament I wouldn't know what I would do. I would be really sad and it would effect my life in a negative way. I have had a similar situation but nobody died. Me and my dad separated for a lil' while and it was pretty upsetting. It changed me in a weird way it is hard to explain but I had like mixed emotions and it really sucked. The day that happened I came home and told my mom what had happened. I remember me saying "daddy hurt my heart" and I remember my mom looking at me and her eyes starting to water. I absolutely hate seeing my mom cry it gets me so mad. Even thinking about it err what the hell!! God my life is f**ked up right now and I can't stop thinking about the s**t that has happened in it. The only thing that keeps me going is my mom, girlfriend, and grandparents that's it. I don't give a f**k bout anything else. I have to get my life straightened out its just to much right now. I'm just not myself yet i haven't been since that problem with me and my dad.